haze!

yep its been long time I didnt update my blog. im starting my patisserie course this Thursday. its a 1 year  and 4 months course. the last 4 months will be the internship.                the government had just done cloud seeding. now the haze is better and the temperature drop a lot. now is 25°c compare to 35°c . and the humidity increase tremenduosly.. now I only know raining can be so happy. I didnt really appreciate raining all this while. and now I really feel its good to rain too. I hope the haze will get better by tmr. cause I need to go college starting this Thursday! wish myself good luck. fighting Andrea lim you can do it! never ever ever ever give up! you are the best! have confident , courage , passion in persuing your dream as a future successful pastry chef. very good luck !!!   ;) 

shes leaving me! i cant get over it! she the only one that i cant hold on to but now shes gone. at the end im still alone. i really hope i can stay in the dark corner and forever just be there. my heart is pain. my tears are pouring. god help me! 

Just came back from hometown Gerik, Perak. we went back for early 'qing ming'. we started our journey on Saturday around 4 o'clock in the afternoon. it took us 4 to 4 1/2 hours to reach. On Sunday morning we have to go to the cemetery as early as 7.00 o'clock in the morning. when my alarm ring at 6.30am, i straightaway hit the stop button and continue to sleep until they finally woke up and alarm me up. i barely open my eyes and took a looked at the time. it's 6.45 if i'm not mistaken. i brushed my teeth and washed my face, change my pajamas and out we head to the cemetery. was very foggy and very cool. everybody prepare the things and we started praying. as usual we burned all the papers... on our journey backed from Gerik to KL, Lyn suddenly said: 'chain?' then we knew that she dropped the gold, bold, heavy chain in the cemetery. the chain is like the Ahlong chain but its gold. my father called back to Gerik home and asked them to went back to the cemetery to help find whether have or not. but unfortunately they didn't managed to found. Lyn was very upset the whole journey until now (midnight). the minute she knew her chain was not with her, she knew that it is definitely gone. the chain was so expensive that worth at least minimum 10 thousand ringgit. i just can said that maybe she lost this precious thing now but god will gave her another more valuable thing for her. i hope so... and hope that she will be alright the next few days... :)                

it ain't true, right?!

i couldn't believe it! am i dreaming? i wish i am.....  one of my malay girl classmate just had an accident during the first day of cny. she went for 'yam cha' with a few friends and one of her friend fetch her and another ppl home. unfortunately, they meet with an accident because there cannot u-turn but they did so a super bike crush onto their kancil car. the passenger behind the driver seat died, the driver had an serious injury and my friend was in coma. but luckily now shes already awake but half of her body was paralyze and the other side can only move up and down. the doctor said minimum need 2 years to recover... shes now in UKM hospital in Cheras.. i was soooo worried about her even though we didn't talk at all but i just cant stop thinking and worrying her. i really hope there is a miracle that she will recover less than 2 years... she was beautiful, smart, good body shape. i really hope she will get stronger and overcome all these obstacles. i want her to stand up and walk like normal and be like the one that i usually see her in class. i really really really hope and pray for her. i hope god don't threat her that bad pls!

suddenly feel like writing a letter to her.

Aliaa, im andrea. i know is a lot to take in but i want you to be strong and believe in god, yourself, friends, parents and relatives. they are always there for you when you need them. i know its hard to take in all but time will let you accept it.. even though there is a scar but most importantly is wounded. so plsss, stay strong.. i want you to stand up and face the truth, the world again. its not the end. its just an obstacle to a better life and a whole new beginning life is waiting for you. you have the support from everyone and you are not alone. trust me you'll recover and be back soon. i'll be waiting for you k? promise me.. bless you Aliaa.. stay strong!!    




Aliaa, stay strong! we'll be right here waiting for u!!! love u! God bless u!

四年了，还好吗？
你应该知道我过得怎么样吧。
新年就在这个礼拜天。
明天我们一起吃午餐吧。
我们现在在不同的时空 
过各自的生活。
那里是不是很美啊?
住的快乐吗？
你遇见了谁吗？
和谁做朋友了？
还是寂寞孤单吗？
还习惯吗？
喜欢在那里住吗？
你每天在干嘛？
你应该很漂亮了吧？
是个大妹女吗？
好想有一天科技可以发达到可以联络到天国呢。
你愿意给我你的联络方式吗？
你变成天使了吗？
你吃了吗？
睡得好吗？
我好想知道一切哦！

妈！想你了。笑一个  :D

from yesterday rain till afternoon. nice i love it.. just feel cool. i wish it can continue to rain till evening...lol!

everything has an answer . Just we dont know the answer and we say there's no answer. 

later i have got class. so no mood to study. everyone already back hometown including my dad and cousin.

suddenly thought of tmr im gonna pray my mom and have a lunch with her. hahah....

HELP!!!!! Im not in a mood today! How? 

chinese new year is on sunday this week. but i dont have the mood at all. 2 assignment to accomplish and a test. sigh. im gonna follow my aunt back on that day as early as 7am. hope that she's not gonna keep nagging at me.. i already not so into mood. and i hope that they wont ask too many questions though. tired of explaining, lying. everyone are rushing back home now. but me? im gonna stay at home today and tmr till sunday morning. hope that my aunt dont ask about my dad. and bout the car. but for 101% they will sure ask... i knew it... sighhh. what a bad cny this year.