我把你当什么？

08/6/2015
不能再坐你的摩托了。。。心里一直在流泪但我没有表现出来。当你一说到你要皱了其实我很舍不得你离开而且新很难过。我不知道怎么面对没有你的日子。怎么办？？！！神啊救救我吧！！！没有人炸我了，没有人帮我了，没的和你吃午餐或晚餐了，没的和你嘻嘻哈哈，没的和你疯狂！少了你的这些事我不懂怎么办。。。

30/6/2015
以为有机会和你吃晚餐哪里知道你只是来一下罢了。看到你走我很伤心。没有心情了。但我装作无所谓。很想念以前的日子。如果可以再选一次我宁可回到以前的工作方式。虽然很累但有你在我不怕。你是我的靠山你知不知道。我知道你不懂。。。所以我只能在这里发泄。我搞不懂我把你当什么。我把你当成同事？朋友？喜欢的人？我承认我有点喜欢你。所以你的一举一动都能牵动到我。我会想你，我会想和你疯狂，我会想和你去吃饭聊天，我会想你有没有想我一点点。

Finally got a job in Berry's cake house. 

Boss was very kind and the workers are Chinese.

salary was 1200 basic. i realize its kinda little after that. 

this wasn't my favourite cake shop. 

to be honest this cake shop is very old school compared to Rt.

but since i've got a job there, i targeted myself to work there and learn my basic as much as possible during this 6 months or even lesser. 

after 6 months im going off to a better place to work. 

6 months on basic training. 

i still want to work in hotel. more experience to pick up. 

and i can get to wear chef jacket instead of a tshirt. this isn't feel professional at all. 

my final target is get into hotel and slowly proceed to maybe cruise. 

I CAN DO IT! I MUST ACHIEVED! i cannot lose and let myself regret. 

i must learn to do out of my best since I've chosen this path as my whole life career. 

Stay positive ANDREA!!! You Can Do It like always! 

Hey, i've been started to thinking about you again. 
i miss you.
how r u?
have you miss me? or think about me even for a second?
i miss Penang. 
i miss the life there.
i miss the life in hotel.
am i still able to go back there and live once again one day.
i keep imagining that we're together and you hold me tight at night.
deep inside my heart i know i still didn't forget about you. 
i'm still hoping for you to come back and find me no matter what way you use. 
im still believing there's still a slight possibility. 
its silly i know. but i couldn't help. 
im waiting for him to bring back my heart that he stole. 

just a smile  and i'm all caught up with this chemical reaction..LOVE

那一杀那看到的夕阳，就让我想起了在槟城。好像再回去。我怀念槟城了！才一个月过去我已经感觉到好像很久了。我还能有机会再回去吗？

recently you slowly crawl back into my mind. should i let you come in? and my army is going to war again. haih.. just wanna miss you for awhile. Jason Jason Jason.

你

回来了两个星期。没有不开心，也没有很开心。只是有时候会想你再干嘛。相像我们住在一起，相像我们对彼此都有感觉但一直还是保持朋友的关系。我相信如果我们有缘份一定还会再见面。到时候，如果我还爱你，我会勇敢地对你说。

好想问你，你是不是也和我一样虽然看起来很多朋友但还是一个人在逛街，一个人去看电影，一个人吃饭。如果是的话我愿意陪你。Jason 你有想我吗？你有发现我不在了吗？你依然没有接受我的friend request. 我会等。看奇迹会出现吗。。 我也没有特别的期待什么。

i have officially ended my on-the-job training. never thought i was reluctant to leave the hotel. even though many people said this hotel isn't good. but i still want to work as a permanent. previously was laughing those who convert into permanent staff and now i have the urge. its not because of him. its of my future. if i work here when i go other hotel they will sure hired me.   

anyway i will work hard for my dreams. i wont give up.