from yesterday rain till afternoon. nice i love it.. just feel cool. i wish it can continue to rain till evening...lol!

everything has an answer . Just we dont know the answer and we say there's no answer. 

later i have got class. so no mood to study. everyone already back hometown including my dad and cousin.

suddenly thought of tmr im gonna pray my mom and have a lunch with her. hahah....

HELP!!!!! Im not in a mood today! How? 

chinese new year is on sunday this week. but i dont have the mood at all. 2 assignment to accomplish and a test. sigh. im gonna follow my aunt back on that day as early as 7am. hope that she's not gonna keep nagging at me.. i already not so into mood. and i hope that they wont ask too many questions though. tired of explaining, lying. everyone are rushing back home now. but me? im gonna stay at home today and tmr till sunday morning. hope that my aunt dont ask about my dad. and bout the car. but for 101% they will sure ask... i knew it... sighhh. what a bad cny this year.

yesterday just pull my tooth for braces. its not that painful actually but the numbness is really  crazy and the blood keep flowing. another two Weeks time I'm gonna pull off another two tooth. haihz......                                                                                                        

25th December 2012

Merry Christmas everyone! Merry Christmas mom!



They predict that on the 21 of this month the world is going to end. i don't really believe it because it is still early for the world to end. They said that there will be no sunlight for 3 days but the problem is yesterday was 24th and the whole day there's no sunlight including today on the Christmas day. Tmr will be no sunlight too? if is really yes, then the prediction is correct.     

chibai 的人。你为什么那么喜欢动人家的东西？我是最讨厌人家动我的东西了。还把我妈的衣服都丢掉。我只是要把她的东西都保存着好让我觉得有点安全感。我不能假装你还在。我只能把你的东西都保留。我不是一个容易适应的人。我不要所有的东西都变化。我宁愿活在灰尘里都不想也不要把这里的所有东西都改变。 爸，你可以顾虑或感受一下你女儿的感受吗？我知道你不在乎那些东西但他对一些人来说是很重要的你懂吗？我知道你永远都不会懂。你每一次做的决定都让我很不爽！你不配做一个爸爸！ 我也不屑有你这个爸爸。我讨厌你和她！！！

你走了   我还留着你的号码      打给你   我知道会转到信箱 想你   假装你还在 研究你的东西

I know its been 3 months since the last post. yesterday I dream of you. thank you for coming to visit me. every time  in the dream I feel like crying. my heart hurts in the dream and i can even feel it real. i don't want to wake up. because when i wake up i know i cant see you, hear you, touch you. this is the only way that i can hear you, see you, sense you, touch you. thank you for coming to my dream. i will appreciate it. i'm looking forward for the next visit. don't make me wait too long. i'll always wait for you.    I LOVE U MUM!