Today i finally cried T_T because of the add maths tuition. Every time i talk about joining add maths tuition sure I'm crying or arguing. But my aunt remembered me and i decided to join the tuition she recommended me where my brother had went before. She said that sure will get an A for add maths i don't know. I'm afraid to go tuition without my friends over there and look at all the strange faces that i haven seen before. But somehow i should not give up. My aunt nag at me on the phone just now and told me why i go for tuition to get an pass by right u have score for a better result not just to pass. And where is my fighting spirit. I have been scolded until i cried. I cried because i'm stupid. I know that very well. Every thing i lose to other people. Myself also don't know what is my 'que dian'. Anyway i will try to enjoy this tuition and make it fun just like i'm learning piano. I wish to learn piano one day but i know very well it is impossible. So i take this tuition as like i'm learning piano and having a piano class. Fully enjoy what the teacher teaches and learn more about add maths. Ignore all the negatives ideas. So I wish my own self a very GOOD LUCK... Just enjoy the tuition and learn, understand the add maths. Unfold the add maths secret and true colours......... YEAH!!!! GO!!! FIGHTING SPIRITS!!!! GO GO GO!!!!

fate & destiny

do you believe in fate and destiny?
i believe
wht about miracle?
i don't believe
cause everytime when i wish for hope miracle never happen on me before
maybe yes it just that i don't know
if u and him/ her has the fate then u two will be the best couple
this kind of thing very hard to say
i and him can meet together i can fall in love on him is a fate
our life always change n collide is not easy to meet with the one that has the same fate as u
destiny is a thing that uncontrollable
i still don't understand why we still need to live at the end we also have to die
life is a cycle
there is no furture cause at the end u also have to die
maybe life is a chance that we gain our experience............

finally exam's finish. and now is school holiday for 2 weeks. not going anywhere. actually planned to go singapore but she suddenly cancled but at last can already but i don't want to go anymore. she had hurt me. i don't like her attitude because she cannot keep her promises. i hate that kind of ppl. of course i myself sure will keep my promises. now eveyday i should go to my auntie's house. i hate that. at her house i'm so discomfort n boring. hiazzzz.... boring!



I HATE HOLIDAYS!!!!

阿杜 at summit

28/5/2010 Friday

today is Wesak day for the Buddhism. my dad said want to go summit then i said i want go watch movie. he never said anything then said ok. the movie i watch today was ' Prince Of Persia...The Sands Of Time' . this show really fantastic. dam nice. full house today. the main character was so handsome. hehee... after finish movie we decided to go meet my dad but when i'm on my way there i suddenly heard ppl singing. so i faster rushed there. i was so happy and shocked to see who is that. u know who's that. It's the taiwan singer 阿杜. i was shocked really i don't know that he is coming here for his 宣传 about his new album 《沒什麼好怕》. he sings very good. he touched my heart when he is singing. this is the first time i see a real singer not in the television type a real live want. i dam happy. and this is my first time watch the 签唱会. and i also take a few photos about him. even though i never bought his album but i still very 'xin shang' u. i just wan to tell u the first second when i saw u, u already become my idol. i hope that one day i also will become like u have my own album, stand on the stage n sing for everyone. i will always support u. u also must pray for me that one day my dream will really come true. thank you very much 阿杜 u make me very happy today. n i really don't expected that i will see u in front of my eyes not in the television anymore.

what is my ambition?!
this question flow in my mind every time.
keep engaging
but i haven't have an answer yet.
everybody ask me to do a nurse
but sometime i want to do a singer.
but i know that sure it won't come true.
i like to be an singer because i want to make more friends n i'm very curious about the back scene n the process. i know i'm not good in singing but i want to sing for everyone n let them to hear my voice. i love to sing but i know i 'm sure cannot be a singer.

last night dream bout my mother.
always i dream bout her she is health. so i'm happy
every time after the dream i will sure miss her a lot.
in reality i miss her so much n the way i saw her is by dreaming.
dreaming helps me to see her back.
i wish she will come back to my life so that i don't need to miss her
my heart is taken half away with her.
things change.
time still continue to run.
but i'm still at the very beginning point drawing so many circles
but i realise that our relation will never go back to the beginning point of the circle.
as time travels things continue to change without my knowing.
i wish things will go back words.
i'm not brave.
my heart can't be strong.
bie ren yi wei wo hen jian qiang ke shi zhe zhi shi wei juang er yi.
wo bu yao bie ren kan dao wo de shang xin nan guo de yi mian.
suo yi wo xue zhe wei zhuang lai yan gai zhi zi de bei shang he tong ku.

Kelly's birthday

yesterday was Kelly's birthday so Darren decided to belanja makan.. me and Sin Ning heard that we said we want to go so bad la me.. every time also like that...hahah.. the venue held at taipan's pizza hut. it's start at 6.10 to 7.30pm.. i came late cause i know the pizza will serve late so i don't want to wait at there. Darren ordered two pizzas one regular one small... it taste good for the regular pizza that pizza i ordered yesterday when i came to ate with my kakak. n the drinks is ice lemon tea n coke... do u guyz know how mush it cost. RM 98.90 eight people. damn its so expensive.. but nvm la he is so rich. =]

yes! finally finished with my story book...

Title : Please Don't Make Me Go.
Author : John Fenton ( the real life of him )

in the end of the story it makes me want to cry because it really touched my heart. this story is about a true story of a boy name John Fenton (author of this book) tells his story of life from being tottered my his father.he is been force n tottered with her mother by his cruel father. his father doesn't like him n his mother because his father was force to married with her mother because she was pregnant n his father doesn't belief that he is his son. his father tottered they both everyday n one day his father was fighting with his mother he suddenly brave himself n took a vegetable knife beside him n scared his father n said i will kill you if u ever beat my mother again i'll deal with you. from that day on his life is turn into darkness n fearness.

Beaten from an early age by his abusive, father, John struggled to fit in at school where his poverty marked him out. When, aged 13, his father brought a charge against him in order to remove him from the family home, John found himself in Juvenile Court - from here he was sent to the notorious St. Vincent′s school, run by a group of Catholic Irish Brothers.
Beatings and abuse were a part of daily life - both from John′s fellow pupils, but also from the brothers, all of which was overseen by the sadistic headmaster, Brother De Montfort. Tormented physically and sexually by one boy in particular, and by the Brothers in general, John quickly learnt to survive but at the cost of the loss of his childhood.
PLEASE DON′T MAKE ME GO, tells in heart-rending detail the day-to-day lives of John and the other boys - the beatings, the weapons fashioned from toilet chains and stones, the loneliness - but we also see the development of John′s love of reading, his growing friendship with Father Delaney and his best friend, Bernard, and his unstinting love for his mother whom he feared was suffering at the hands of his violent father.
A painfully, brutally honest account, PLEASE DON′T MAKE ME GO is also an example of the resilience of the human spirit as it documents how John learnt to survive and come through his ordeal.

after i have read finished the story i'm very impress of him cause he makes me know that he is very brave n strong he dare to deal with all the abuse to survive. really very impress. he really brave. but the other sight is that he tell me that he is lonely.