hi....
too long never write blog d
almost a month
nw i'm still at my hometown
tmr i'm going back d
haha....
so happy
yesterday i went to Batu Burok beach early in the morning to watch sunrise
but when i reach there the sun alrdy come out but i can't saw it
cause the cloud is so low it blocks the sun
but i still saw the sun at 8am.....

yesterday my dad went and take my PMR result for me
he msg me and told me i got 5A, 1B, 1C and my chinese failed..
so sad...

yesterday i woke up at 4.30 am
cause i need to go to the airport and fly to terengganu
and the air asia flight delay for almost an hour
i hate that....
i was very tired on that day...

y u don't want to let me go to the 书展
i wan to buy book for myself
i want to improve myself
i told myself i must studyhard
don't be useless
it's just at THE MINES
i know is far but i though
knowledge don't care how far is it
as long as u want to touch it of course that is not the matter
i'm very angry about u
veryyyyyyyyyy angryyyyyy abouttttttt uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey, it's me...
quite a long time not blogging
heheh...
yesterday i went to summit and watch movie
this movie is special
it's really vey special
the ever movie i watch
the movie call ' Michael Jackson This Is It '
yesterday is the first day on air
so i rush to the summit and watch
the movie is interesting
and after i finished watching the movie
i realise that he is really the Genius that i ever known n seen
i understand him better n know him deeper
he's actually a guy a person that is caring, loving, funny, laughter, hardworking n more that i can't list it out n explain
he actually want to let everybody know n understand about him more deeper n don't want more n more miss understanding
after i watch this movie i started to realise a lot of things n a lot of questions flouting up on my surface of my brain
this movie really works
hahah....
its a big achievements....
i think HE is going to be happy when he saw our effect to his movie
once again i'm going to said
it's a very very big achievements of him...
i'm going to thanks him everytime when i think or see his pic anytime
he really makes me more matured....
THANKS A LOT MICHAEL...
I LOVE U...muacksxxx
in my bottom of my heart...
hahahahahahaha......
May U R.I.P
n
GOD BLESS U ANYTIME n ANYWEHERE yeah!!!.....

long time never write blog d lo....

Today I n my classmates go sunway pyramid
Is quite boring
but I'm happy
cause
I can see my friends n say jokes
hahahah....
Actually we want 2 watch movie de
then after we reach there
they said don't want to watch d
That time i'm quite angry n disappointed
but what can i do
then we went to eat
after eat then they went 2 take pic 4 my friend
cause she is going to live the school
but i din't participate
cause i hate taking pic
after that 1 of my friend said very boring
then i said ya la who ask u all don't want to watch movie
sure boring la
then my friend said ok la we go n watch movie
so we run to the cinema
cause we don't have time anymore the show is going to start
after we reached the cinema we saw so many ppl buying ticket
so 1 of them said aiyo so many ppl if i know so many ppl just now we should buy the ticket
just now so little ppl nw so many ppl
then they saw checked the time n which show
i though they want to watch Law Aibiding Citizen
mana tahu they said want the other want
ok lo nvm
then they checked the time but all the time not fit them too late
so they discussed want to watch or not
n I'm helping them 2 quit up
u know wht happen
they suddenly told me don't want 2 watch d
again these word
after i heared that word again
I really get very angry n disappointed again 1 more time
Fine....
so we spend our time eating especially me
after eating we walked around n they bought their things
then 4.30 we all went back
I follow 1 of my friend's car her mother send me home....

2day I have a little bit angry, disappointed n tired
but I'm still happy......
:]

i'm expect for my next thursday birthday....
hahahah...
but sure not exited that wht i expected...

Yay, PMR is finally over....
hahahah XD....
hope i can past n a get good result that what i expected...

PMR is coming...
OMG.... i'm a little bit of nervous right now
is like going to heaven
i hope that my maths, science,english n geografi
can get A
but i don't know i can or not
but anyway i must try my best
i cannot make my parents, friends n my relatives a shame
yup, i must try
go go go!!! andrea u can do it...
haha
good luck to everybody...
and also myselfes...
bye bye...

haiz....

so many things happen recently

and i'm very trouble now

why you will become like that

u had change

n from bad to worst

i'm scare

i'm afraid

that i will loss her

she treat me so well

she have make a promise to take care of me

but i'm scare

that u will fire her

i already have nobody to talk to

is just left her

but now u said u want to fire her

u know i hate u more n more from day to day

cause u had already change....

is it everybody know that when they r going to die
or just a particular person only
i don't know how to express my feelings nw
but first i need to find a person that willing to hear my story's
i'm not a person that like to share my feeling's
eveytime i will keep all the feeling's in my heart
that's why i'm so suffering
nw is time to share my story's n my feelings
anyone is willing to be my listener
for me is very hard to find a listener
my heart is very pain right nw
from days to days
the cut in my heart is getting deeper n deeper
how can i recovered it
someone help me !!!
i'm in trouble....

i seems don't understand
y everytime unfortunate things always happen
can anyone give me a good reason for it
my heart is tired of the hurt
it can't stand anymore
but i can't get rid of it
i'm suffering from the past
i can't find a way to step out of the hole
it seems getting deeper n deeper
and finally i failed to climb out
cause i'm tired....
after the things had happen
i never happy before till nw
i'm tired...
really...
i'm not strong
i'm a slacker

he said
is time to go
is time to leave
is time to let go
is time to say goodbye
is time to have peace
is time to rest
is time to relax
u r tired i know
nw i send my angels to u
n follow me
don't worry about them
they will be fine
u r really tired
very tired
n restless
the choice is u need a rest
just leave them
u will be happier in here
send a smile back to them
before u leave them
this will comfort them little....

looking at the blue sky

they are smilling to me

n told me u were be fine

unfortunate things always happen

when time passes

u only know wht is cherish

eveything seems to be changing

now u r covered by angels

may u be peace

god always protect u

n bless u

u were never alone anymore

i think u r nw very happy n healthy

i think of u everyday

is not that i can't sleep

is just i'm missing u

stary stary night

the star blinking like u were looking at me

n the moon on the night sky

smilling to me

just like ur smile that never vanish

i just wanna know that how r u

i can feel that

u were more prettier n healthier

just like i imagine

i just want to see u

how r u nw

i can c the sorrow from ur heart

don't worry

jesus always protect u

wait for me

Grandma, u must wait for me !!!

u need to wait for me

u cannot just go

do u understand me ?!

i really don't want to loose you

u must be strong

pls...

u really must wait for me

i'm not strong enough to stand up

so i need your help

to support me

u r my lovely grandma that i ever had

pls....

don't leave me till i'm over my PMR

i need ur support

i really need u

did u hear me....

T_T

today my father's friend came to my house

then i went downstairs

and he gave me a molton basketball and a pair of molton jersey

and he said this is from Uncle Tong

he gave it to me

and i was so happy

cause finally i got a molton basketball

i want that molton basketball for so long d

finally i got it

hahaha....

so happy

i know my dad is not going to buy for me that ball

cause it course quite a lot

so my dad sure not allowed me to buy wan...

but finally...

and i finally got a molton jersey i am very happy 2

but the pants is quite big for me !!!

haha...

but the thing is i don't have a basketball shoe

my basketball shoe had been stolen last few months ago

after my basketball match...

sad...

T_T

The one who bears the sweetest name.

And adds luster to the same,

long life to her,

for there's no other,

who takes the place of my sweet mother.

A mother's LOVE,

cannot be measured,

it is a gem to be treasured....

The God,

could not be everywhere,

that's why he send mother to us.

when i see u

i was speechless

when u walk away

i was upset

when u smiling

i was happy

when u moody

i was upset

when i'm watching u from the corner

u were so handsome

when i'm talking to you

i was nervous

whenever i'm thinking about u

i wish u will notice that

whenever u r walking with those girls

i'm so hurt

never have a chance

to speak with u like friends

=/

holidayz....

boring....

music...

save my bored...

i love listening music...

music really save me ...

when i'm bored or sad...

it really save me...

it save my soul...

if this woorld there's no music

i can imagine how this world will be

there's no joyful

happyneess

u will be all covered in stress

i prefer listening to music rather than studying

haha....

wht is life?

wht is my life...

i don't know...

i should't belong in this world

cause i'm so useless

i'm just a small little tiny ant...

more useless than the ant

i don't know i'm good in wht

drawing,nop

singing,nop

dancing,nop

maths,nop

i'm sucks in eveything

i'm so sad about myself

I'll pour my Love on u

Every night i wish u will think about me
i pour my Love on you
i don't know how to say exactly how i feel
and i can't begin to tell you
wht your Love has meant to me
i'm lost in words
is there a way to show the
passion in my heart
can i express how truly great
i think you are
my dearest lover
lord this is my desire
to pour my Love on you

Like oil upon your feet
like wine for you to drink
like water from my heart
i pour my Love on you
if praise is like a perfume
i'll lavish mine on you
till every drop is gone
i'll pour my Love on you !!!

OMG !!!!

OMG !!!
just now just heard from my dad
that my mom's cousin's husband 'gone'
i was really shock
seriously
cause when my mom past away that time
he was there with us
and he look's so healthy
and now....
i'm really in shock
now my feelings is very hurt
i keep asking myself am i dreaming
is this joking
is my father playing a full
i can't accept this truth
even though i'm not so close to you
i still can't face the truth
i'm really going to mad
i don't know y
y
y
y
y
all my closes ppl 1 by 1 leaving me
i'm totally hurt
i don't know
i really don't know
wht to say
i'm speechless now
can anyone tell me y
i really want to know y
is the god good or bad
in this second i'm not sure
cause the god always make me unhappy
my life is different from the others
i'm very trouble
everyday.....
can someone make me happy?
i guess (you) who the 1 can only make me happy
=_=

the first day i meet u

i already fall in love with u

u know?

i want u to hold my hand

forever n ever

never let go

till the end

can u?

i have been waiting for u boy

can u give me a chance

am i so bad 2 u

i try best to improve myself 4 u

i do everything 4 u

did u notice that ?

my heart beat works for u

my heart is belong to you

my whole mind thinks about you

every night every single second

did you fell that?

tired....
dam tired
these few days
very tired even though i sleep very early
sleepy...
-_- ZzZ

trial exam was finally finish....
but i don't feel happy
i wish there is more exam for me
u mayb will say me am i mad
i'm not mad
cause i 'm not ready for PMR
u r not beside me
no one give me encourage
i was so sad that u left me
i'm still not recover from that hurt

day from day's i'm counting to myself
that's going to be the day
the day has really reach
and i gave u a flower and say
happy mother's day
day's from day's u r getting futher from me
and ur smile is so beautiful
i can't just forget
u told everyword and sentences
i will remember
i still remember u teach me ABC
now u were not with me
i send u my wishes to stay happy
u r my perfect mother
u r my perfect mother
and i want to tell u i'm so sorry
that i hurt u so much

i can't breath,

i'm hurt,

totally hurt,

how can this be,

a slice of knife cut through my heart,

do u have to go?

did u have to go ?

and leave my world so cold n lonely

everyday i'm thinking of u

even though i'm dreaming i will dream u too

i miss u so much

that every min i will think bout u

think bout wht we have done last time

our happy time

our sad time

when we r together

when u r beside me

actually u r not alone

cause u r in my heart forever

i don't know how to express my feeling

it makes my heart swallon n pain

i feel like crying but i can't cry

this feeling start when u left me

i wan to see you

i think bout u everyday

i really wan to cryyyy

my heart is so pain

every breath i breath i can feel the pain

that is so pain till i can't feel the pain

can all this stop

i don't know how long i can hold this

is this just temperery or forever

i have no idea

did u really have to go ?

after u left me

my world is so dark

just like in a dark hole

there's no direction to show me

which way to go

if there's a day

if there's a day the God ask me what i want

i will tell the God that i just want all the bad,sad things to turn into good and happy things

just like every second every minute there are people 'leaving' this world,

people suffering from sickness,

people suffering from hungry,

and others.....

i just don't want all that to be happening,

if u see them one by one are leaving us u will be heart pain or sad crying

i can't recover my heart pain when i see a person dying in front of me or sufferig in front of me

is this all suppose to happen?

or is just disaster

till now i still can't recover of your death

i don't know when it will recover maybe a few days more, few months or forever

is just like a deep cut in my heart that will never recover.....

i'm very tired waiting u...

i really wan to forget u ...

but i can't...

i already try my best ..

to forget u...

i'm really very tired...

very very tired....

i don't know why i can't just forget about u...

is this really wht love's mean?

i'm been waiting u for so long....

but u never know....

even though u know u will just tell me just forget about u...

we will be just friend...

u r always in my mind....

it's just like it already stick there forever...

even though how hard i try to get rid of it....

it will never work...

yesterday is my mother's birthday....
everytime she birthday i never celebrate wif her....
cause if we celebrate n buy the cake she also don't eat the cake....
n i never ever got a change to celebrate wif her anymore.....
i only can just wish her...
sometimes, if we already miss the aportunity...
that means is already miss....
eventhough how hard u chase u will also never chase back....
because there's ONLY a chance....
one's u miss u will never chase back...
i already miss a lot of chance that is been given by the god...
but i never treasure it...
i just let the chance go.....
don't know how to chase back....
hai....

haiz.... this month lot's of things is happening....
espeacially for the bad's wan....
don't know why....

i can't don't look at u....
u are my star...
the most shinning star in the galaxy...
u are my air....
don't have u i can't breath...
i can't leave....
everynight i can't sleep i think about u....
i wish 2 see u every second....

孤独

自从您走了我的生活成为了很寂寞

多希望您可以再陪我

很舍不得您的我

每天还不断想起您

我知道你已经很受苦了这么多年

但我仍然很舍不得您

这一件事来得太突然了

我觉得这一切只是一场梦

我好想回到过去有您在我的生活的日子

hai....事情已经过去了什么也不能做了

让它过去吧!!!

^_^

dam tired

dam tired.....

these day go hospital take care my mother....

so no time to blog....

today quite free....

so can blog for a while....

nothing 2 blog today....

bye bye need to go hospital again....

blog again when i'm free....

don't worry....

^_^

我越来越恨你

我越来越恨你.....
从那一时刻.....
我慢慢恨你.....
就算你上次对我很好.....
我觉得这一切就像一场梦.....

today my mother went 2 hospital 4 medical check up.......
my mother don't let me follow....
so i stay at home alone........
they went out at 3 pm.....
after they went out i straight away on the tv......
i watch 3 hours until they came back.....


when heard them came back d......
i rushed n look 4 the remote control n off the tv.....
cause my father don't let me watch tv.....
i watch too much tv d......
i can sit n watch tv 4 d whole day......
that's why my father don't let me watch.....

^_^

today nothing special.......
just a little bit tired......
yesterday i din't slap well.....
so need more rest.......
don't know what 2 say today.....
can't get an idea.....
nw listening 2 my favourite song......
listen until sleep.....
then suddenly my mother call me.....
i got shock n nearly going 2 fall down....
haha...... don't laugh la.... very shy.....
ok la that's all 4 today....
going 2 sleep nw......
bye bye......
blog again tmr.......
^_^

today all my cousin when back 2 Terengganu.....
they slap at my aunty's house yesterday......
cause my house not enough room 4 them 2 sleep.....
this morning my uncle came 2 my house n fetch my grandmother n grandfather home....
my grandmother n grandfather stay at Terengganu....
they come with my uncle n my cousin.....
after they left my house is back 2 normal......
so quiet.....

then i went 2 taipan n change my glassers nose pad.....
then the doctor's asistant go n told the doctor to help me change.....
then i waited 4 a few minutes.....
the doctor's asistant came out n told me that .......
doctor said had 2 pay money.....
i got a shocked n say 'ha'......
cause everytime i come here change also no need 2 pay.....
y this time i come need 2 pay.....
n i still sitting there waiting.......
n the doctor came out n told me is RM 12 .....
then i got a big shocked again......
i was thinking y it cost so expensive.....
n i say find la what can i do......
cause there is where the only shop's nose pad is comfortable......
haha.....
swt right......
so i paid the money n say thank you n bye bye......

today my cousin from Terengganu came to my house......

i was very happy.....

but they just come 4 only 1 day n they are going back tmr....

T_T

after when they go back i'm going 2 be lonely n boring again...

i hate holidayz......

cause ....

it is going 2 be very boring staying at home.....

but anyway i'm going 2 spend my holidayz listening 2 songz....

haha....

this the only way that can cure my boring....

haha...

that's all 4 today going 2 do my holiday homework....

blog tmr again....

bye....

^_^