shes leaving me! i cant get over it! she the only one that i cant hold on to but now shes gone. at the end im still alone. i really hope i can stay in the dark corner and forever just be there. my heart is pain. my tears are pouring. god help me! 

Just came back from hometown Gerik, Perak. we went back for early 'qing ming'. we started our journey on Saturday around 4 o'clock in the afternoon. it took us 4 to 4 1/2 hours to reach. On Sunday morning we have to go to the cemetery as early as 7.00 o'clock in the morning. when my alarm ring at 6.30am, i straightaway hit the stop button and continue to sleep until they finally woke up and alarm me up. i barely open my eyes and took a looked at the time. it's 6.45 if i'm not mistaken. i brushed my teeth and washed my face, change my pajamas and out we head to the cemetery. was very foggy and very cool. everybody prepare the things and we started praying. as usual we burned all the papers... on our journey backed from Gerik to KL, Lyn suddenly said: 'chain?' then we knew that she dropped the gold, bold, heavy chain in the cemetery. the chain is like the Ahlong chain but its gold. my father called back to Gerik home and asked them to went back to the cemetery to help find whether have or not. but unfortunately they didn't managed to found. Lyn was very upset the whole journey until now (midnight). the minute she knew her chain was not with her, she knew that it is definitely gone. the chain was so expensive that worth at least minimum 10 thousand ringgit. i just can said that maybe she lost this precious thing now but god will gave her another more valuable thing for her. i hope so... and hope that she will be alright the next few days... :)