nature

i love to take photograph. not about myself. is about the nature. i will take pictures on every places of the nature. i love to see the nature. it makes me relax. i wish i could travel around the world. but it's imposible i know. if i could i will. n i will take lots n lots of pictures. my friends love to take pic at me but i don't like it. because when i look on the pic of myself it looks ugly. i love to take photograph is because i want every moment come to a halt when i snap the pic. n when one day when i open the photo album i would remember the moments. taking photo pic is fun. it is not neccesary that u need to become a photographer. but u can't be ur own photographer.

carnival 2010

today was my school carnival day. i hope i can see u again. n my wishes really came true. i saw u with ur gf. i'm not jealous but the feeling for u suddenly came back to me. u look different n handsome. ur hairstyle change a little but i still can recognized u. i still don't dare to look at ur face when u r talking with my friend sitting beside me. u never recognized me. cause i already change my hairstyle n my spectacles. n i also knew u won't recognized me. i also don't dare to say hi. i'm still a bit sad. when u r talking to kar mern i don't dare to look at u i just pretending to look else where like i don't know u. but i'm still happy to see u again. when u n ur gf where looking around in the canteen i just can't take my eyes of u. u two are so matched together. i don't really believe when u r still with her. i can see that u LOVE her so much. my heart hurts a little bit but i have to accept the truth the cruel truth. anyway i still hope u be happy. today carnival day also happen something hysterical thing. first, our bugger were nice, so many ppl coming to our stall n u have to wait until u can die the queue is so long n the business is so good until halfway they said finish d. second, there is one more person kena rasuk hantu again. this incident starts from thursday. i don't know wht happen to our school these few days.

no one undurstands me. no one ever understands me. even though my parents or my friends. i wish one day some one could understands me.

matured

i'm so angry that everytime when u all talk in the phone suddenly i'm involved in u guys conversation. u guys like to complaint bout me. wish i don't like it. i don't like the way u keep babbling on me. and tell me i need to me mature n do this do that. i know u guys care for me. i know that truly. but can u guys don't keep babbling or complaint bout me. i know that i'm not matured enough i know i don't look like an adult i know my attitude is bad i know i'm stubborn but i'm trying my best to make myself matured, change my attitude make myself more perfect. i know in u guys eyes i'll never look perfect enough. i'm always the one who is a bad attitude, stubborn, stupid, dumb n retarded. i know myself well enough though can u please understands me. if i have the brave to tell u, i will just wanna tell u i want u to stop babbling n complaining me. if u want me to be matured so the only way is that u stop babbling n complaining me n i face my failed, wrongs, mistakes, regret, problems myself. and from there i only know where i'm wrong n i learn from my mistakes theres the only way to make myself more matured there is no use u everyday babbling on me. u just waste u energy. u know human makes mistake.

today is a good day it doesn't rain.
and i'm happy cause i finally found the mondul pintas notes for sejarah.
teacher already give us the notes but i don't even realise it cause i didn't look down the corner there.
this year FIFA world cup is gonna over soon.
this is the first year i'm watching FIFA n also football.


finding a true friend is hard.
i make my head clear n think who is my best friend that will listen to my sadness n all my feelings.
i'm always feeling lonely.
even though i'm happy today in school or with my friends when i settle down myself i'll be thinking nonsense n feeling lonely.
i'm envy with those who have a best friend.
i wish i could have a best friend so that i can share my feelings or secrets with them.

ur smile ur eveything is fading
wht can i do to make it clear n remebered 4ever

today is my mother's 1st anniversary. me my dad my kakak went to the shah alam memorial park. i didn't went to school today.