FUCK!!! Being force to go college tomorrow. because of a gathering. i'm not interested in it. plus, i'm lazy to go. it's a boring college. 




i don't know why when i heard that you have already change your target i will get so sad. i was thinking about it the whole day. i just couldn't know why? am i jealous? it's just a selfish thought that you don't like anyone except me.... i think through my feelings to you every time. i just don't want to be with you but i can't think about you like other girls. dammit!!! can someone tell me what am i doing? what actually my feeling towards him? the real answered me is my heart, myself... 

just change!

started college for 1 week already. i feel the change between me, michelle and mun kuan. we usually go to the account tuition and add maths tuition together but now i'm learning these on my own.... i feel lonely. i don't get joy. i said i'm not going touch account anymore but unfortunately i have to continue learning it... mun kuan go for multimedia design and michelle go for mass communication. i feel the distance between us... i don't know why. i feel sad too. i want to go back to the time when the three of us are together. i feel a bit regret taking this course. argh!!! why are these feeling coming towards me. i should enjoy my college life. but i don't. i feel dam boring. and there are no handsome guys for me to look at. what a shit college.  things should not change!!!  T_T