i can't breath,

i'm hurt,

totally hurt,

how can this be,

a slice of knife cut through my heart,

do u have to go?

did u have to go ?

and leave my world so cold n lonely

everyday i'm thinking of u

even though i'm dreaming i will dream u too

i miss u so much

that every min i will think bout u

think bout wht we have done last time

our happy time

our sad time

when we r together

when u r beside me

actually u r not alone

cause u r in my heart forever

i don't know how to express my feeling

it makes my heart swallon n pain

i feel like crying but i can't cry

this feeling start when u left me

i wan to see you

i think bout u everyday

i really wan to cryyyy

my heart is so pain

every breath i breath i can feel the pain

that is so pain till i can't feel the pain

can all this stop

i don't know how long i can hold this

is this just temperery or forever

i have no idea

did u really have to go ?

after u left me

my world is so dark

just like in a dark hole

there's no direction to show me

which way to go

if there's a day

if there's a day the God ask me what i want

i will tell the God that i just want all the bad,sad things to turn into good and happy things

just like every second every minute there are people 'leaving' this world,

people suffering from sickness,

people suffering from hungry,

and others.....

i just don't want all that to be happening,

if u see them one by one are leaving us u will be heart pain or sad crying

i can't recover my heart pain when i see a person dying in front of me or sufferig in front of me

is this all suppose to happen?

or is just disaster

till now i still can't recover of your death

i don't know when it will recover maybe a few days more, few months or forever

is just like a deep cut in my heart that will never recover.....

i'm very tired waiting u...

i really wan to forget u ...

but i can't...

i already try my best ..

to forget u...

i'm really very tired...

very very tired....

i don't know why i can't just forget about u...

is this really wht love's mean?

i'm been waiting u for so long....

but u never know....

even though u know u will just tell me just forget about u...

we will be just friend...

u r always in my mind....

it's just like it already stick there forever...

even though how hard i try to get rid of it....

it will never work...

yesterday is my mother's birthday....
everytime she birthday i never celebrate wif her....
cause if we celebrate n buy the cake she also don't eat the cake....
n i never ever got a change to celebrate wif her anymore.....
i only can just wish her...
sometimes, if we already miss the aportunity...
that means is already miss....
eventhough how hard u chase u will also never chase back....
because there's ONLY a chance....
one's u miss u will never chase back...
i already miss a lot of chance that is been given by the god...
but i never treasure it...
i just let the chance go.....
don't know how to chase back....
hai....

haiz.... this month lot's of things is happening....
espeacially for the bad's wan....
don't know why....

i can't don't look at u....
u are my star...
the most shinning star in the galaxy...
u are my air....
don't have u i can't breath...
i can't leave....
everynight i can't sleep i think about u....
i wish 2 see u every second....