Finally got a job in Berry's cake house. 

Boss was very kind and the workers are Chinese.

salary was 1200 basic. i realize its kinda little after that. 

this wasn't my favourite cake shop. 

to be honest this cake shop is very old school compared to Rt.

but since i've got a job there, i targeted myself to work there and learn my basic as much as possible during this 6 months or even lesser. 

after 6 months im going off to a better place to work. 

6 months on basic training. 

i still want to work in hotel. more experience to pick up. 

and i can get to wear chef jacket instead of a tshirt. this isn't feel professional at all. 

my final target is get into hotel and slowly proceed to maybe cruise. 

I CAN DO IT! I MUST ACHIEVED! i cannot lose and let myself regret. 

i must learn to do out of my best since I've chosen this path as my whole life career. 

Stay positive ANDREA!!! You Can Do It like always! 

Hey, i've been started to thinking about you again. 
i miss you.
how r u?
have you miss me? or think about me even for a second?
i miss Penang. 
i miss the life there.
i miss the life in hotel.
am i still able to go back there and live once again one day.
i keep imagining that we're together and you hold me tight at night.
deep inside my heart i know i still didn't forget about you. 
i'm still hoping for you to come back and find me no matter what way you use. 
im still believing there's still a slight possibility. 
its silly i know. but i couldn't help. 
im waiting for him to bring back my heart that he stole. 

just a smile  and i'm all caught up with this chemical reaction..LOVE

那一杀那看到的夕阳，就让我想起了在槟城。好像再回去。我怀念槟城了！才一个月过去我已经感觉到好像很久了。我还能有机会再回去吗？

recently you slowly crawl back into my mind. should i let you come in? and my army is going to war again. haih.. just wanna miss you for awhile. Jason Jason Jason.

你

回来了两个星期。没有不开心，也没有很开心。只是有时候会想你再干嘛。相像我们住在一起，相像我们对彼此都有感觉但一直还是保持朋友的关系。我相信如果我们有缘份一定还会再见面。到时候，如果我还爱你，我会勇敢地对你说。

好想问你，你是不是也和我一样虽然看起来很多朋友但还是一个人在逛街，一个人去看电影，一个人吃饭。如果是的话我愿意陪你。Jason 你有想我吗？你有发现我不在了吗？你依然没有接受我的friend request. 我会等。看奇迹会出现吗。。 我也没有特别的期待什么。

i have officially ended my on-the-job training. never thought i was reluctant to leave the hotel. even though many people said this hotel isn't good. but i still want to work as a permanent. previously was laughing those who convert into permanent staff and now i have the urge. its not because of him. its of my future. if i work here when i go other hotel they will sure hired me.   

anyway i will work hard for my dreams. i wont give up. 

say something im giving up on you

finally i found my courage to add you in facebook and wanted to confess my feelings to you after you've accepted my friend request. but i waited for days the outcome was very disappointing and im curious why haven you accept my request. i've been unconditionally waiting for you and i've sleepless night. cant you just accept my request? is that so hard? i found myself drowning into a black place where all my sadness, doubtfulness, disappointment have slowly eaten me up. i dont feel happy anymore. my heart is sooo tired. replaying those songs to let  me endure the sadness.

while im walking to work today, i told myself just give up on him. he doesn't know i'm upset because of him. he doesn't know i'm heartache. he doesn't know i cant sleep at night because i'm thinking so hard of  him. he doesn't know i've been waiting day and night of him to accept my friend request. he doesn't know everything is because of him. when i cant sleep or im not happy i lost my health and it doesn't affect him and he doesn't know. in the end i'm the one who bear all the consequences without him acknowledge. so what for i wait for him. so what for i make myself so unhappy and so tired everyday. just give up!!! im so tired of not being happy! i feel my world is so dark now. i gotta get out  of it. i can do it. yes!!!